Nurse Jen

Work sucks. I'm lonely!

I'm very depressed today and I dont know why. I want to go back to bed.

Holy freaking crap! I called macys to see how much money I had to play with on my macys card.... My credit on the card has gone up 10 times since the last time I looked at the bill...... I'm going shopping today.... I'm going to spend A LOT of money!!!!!! Sure the interest is shitty, sure I'm broke now.... But I have too much money on this card NOT to spend!!!!

Dear Famous Amos cookies,

 I love you so much with your chocolatey goodness and your sweet delicious cookie dough. I love your clever bite siziness. Even if it is 2 bites and not one. But oh why is there only a few in the bag? and why are they so bad for you? Filled with fat, sodium and calories, you are my enemy! But still I love you. You tastey little morsels.

 Always your fat little porker,                Jen

Mark and I just got a loan for a car. He is getting a new Jeep Patriot. The loan is in both our names. Our first car together AW!!! I guess we are getting it before we go camping up north later this month. I'm excited! 

Work is boring today. I want to go home. Anything fun going on?


Robbie....... I'm still going to win the bet!

Guess who didnt go to the store yesterday!!!!
I did manage to spend a good deal of money on gifts for the bachelorette party! ten gift bags for under $100. My checkbook is crying, but at least I have that out of the way. Now I have to pay the rest of the bills for this month...
* macys
* cingular
* time warner
* 24 hr fitness --- I havent been there in over a month....
* AAA-car insurance 
Thank GOD I get paid on the 31st!!!!! Just in time for my other set of bills!
* rent
* GMAC-car payment
* capital one
 And then I have the bills that I need to pay!
*  hospital bills - STILL
* speeding ticket

I'm going to have to work extra!!!!!!

I feel like CRAP!!!! I need new lungs!
Mark had a softball ame yesterday, and he is REALLY hurting. I got him sick earlier this week. Poor Baby!!!!! 
I'm going to try and get home early today and take a nice long nap!

I got paid today THANK GOD! So I need to go to the store today too. I HATE THE STORE! I can NEVER get out of there without spending at least $50. On NOTHING!!!!
 List for today
 * sodas for party on saturday ----- maybe some booze too?
 *  waters for the apartment- tap water=gross
 *  cheese bread- i love it!
 * frozen tina burritos - i love em!
 * OJ
 * ground turkey - better than beef
 * peanut butter
 * wheat bread
 * frozen pizza - I cant help but get one every time I go to the store

Yep, looks like over $50 to me!!!

I just coughed really hard and I think I just gave myself a hernia!!!! OH MY GUT!!!!

This is really not fair!!!!
I think I'm sick AGAIN!
I didnt even get better yet!
Mark thinks I gave it to him 2 days ago and he reinfected me yesterday.
I feel like CRAP! And I'm at work. This place sucks! I'm gonna go breath on people.

Guess who found the headphones!!!!!!!
I love this movie!!!!
I checked all the fluids in the car..... everything looks good..... Maybe its the damn thermostat.
Anyways....
 ATOM! COME SEE ME TOMORROW!!!!!

CRAPOLA!!!
So, it's starting out to be a bad day.
I took Marks car to work.
He's been having car trouble though. It's been overheating on him. The mechanic said it needed oil and it's fine now!
NO!!!!
I was driving up the mountains on 210 when I watched it start to heat up... The heater was cranked already. I decided to pull over when it got to the next notch.... then the next notch..... I started to panic... Then I got to the top of the hill where it is quite a bit cooler... it was 47 degrees.... it started to cool the car off...... 
THANK GOD!  
So I put the car in neutral all the way down the hill. When I got closer to work I turned the heater off to see if it would overheat again. It didnt, but it was still pretty cool outside. When I leave work today at 3:30 it's going to be close to if not over 90 degrees! I dont know what I'm going to do yet.....
But before all this happened!!!!! I got out of the shower and was about to apply a new birth control patch when I noticed, gee, I didnt have any!!!! It was such a CRAZY week I forgot all about birth control! Yay for me!
I woke Mark up and told him he gets to get it! I failed to mention that it isnt covered by my insurance and it costs nearly $40 a month! Oh well, it's his turn to pay... He's the one that doesnt want babies!
OH YEAH!
So I get to the parking lot and I realize I dont have my books! They are in MY car! So I have nothing to read. It's a boring day. And I'm stressed about the car and Marks ability to get up before the pharmacy closes!
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I am VERY pleased that I DID get to work on time and I didnt need to call AAA.
And if I DO overheat or breakdown on the freeway on the way home, I CAN call AAA and I DO have MANY free towing miles, so that wont be too bad..... It's not MY car! Sorry Mark! Love you!
And for the birth control.... I have tomorrow off. 1 day isnt that big of a deal.
And for the boredom..... Well, thats what LiveJournal is for.
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And as an added bonus.... Mark left his fancy new sunglasses in my purse (they look great on me). So I dont need to squint to look for the tow truck.
AND he left his ipod in his car.... All I need to do is hunt for headphones which I'm SURE are in his car and then I can watch The Royal Tenenbaums all day!
So maybe it isnt all really THAT bad.

So, I am currently reading 'The Road' by Cormac McCarthy.
It's on Oprah's books club. 
I didnt know that until I got it from Amazon.com
It's ok. Just ok so far.
I am only a fourth through it though.
At home I just started 'The True and Outstanding Adventures of the Hunt Sisters' by Elisabeth Robinson.
So far its very sad and emotional, but I knew what I was getting into from the beginning.

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I have a cold and I feel like poop today.
It's pretty slow for now at work, so reply and tell me what you're doing today!! What you're reading!!! I also finished 'The Bell Jar' by Sylvia Plath, 'On The Road' by Jack Kerouac, and 'Rant' by Chuck Palahniuk recently if anyone has opinions on those books.
 
 

   OK, so It's been a while since I've had time to get onto the internet. I havent been working weekends lately and thats when I usually have the time to LJ it up. I am going to be working this weekend though.  
   I've been very busy with weddings and other events. Glorias beautiful wedding is in a couple weeks and I'm the maid of honor!!! With all this wedding talk, I think I'm ready to have a little nuptual of my own soon. Mark and I are doing TONS better. He's been so good to me and we rarly argue anymore. Having more time for ourselves really helps. 
  Robbie came out to see me! We went to the natural history museum, long beach aquarium, and the RANT signing. ( WWW.RANTBOOK.COM )
 ooo..... I gotta go! More catching up later!

chuck palahniuk is my hero!

YIKES!
A guy I went to nursing school with is in the ICU at Desert Regional!!!
A semi hit his car on the fwy!
I'm going to see him on Saturday.
 

Made a little bet with a coworker today.
The weight lose challenge!
I plan to lose 10 pounds.
The race ends May 31!
Wish me luck!
I cant even share with you what my weight was today!
I thought I was going to cry!
My daily calorie goal is 1200cal/day.
I'm going to starve to death!

I made lots of money this week!!!!!!
It was DAMN hard!!!!!
I get to pay bills!!!!!

Its been a long time since I've been on LJ!!!!!
Today I over heard them page a Dr. Cankle..... I know which thick ankled woman they are talking about I think..... What a cruel joke... The next page is going to be Dr. Jack Mehoffer....


I wanna go home.

Well, guess who came home!!!!!!! 

For only one day of course. He's going back to his parents today.... To leave me all by myself again.

He was shockingly nice to me yesterday. I dont know if it was because he was so sick or if it was an act of god. 

Speaking of god..... Mark has decided to go back to church. He makes it sound like I was holding him from going.... Which is kind of funny that the only time we went to church together, I had to DRAG HIS ASS THERE!!!!!!!

But of course, I am the bad person. Always and forever, the bad person..... all alone.... the chick with 60 cats ..... the bad person.... I'moh yeah, I'm drinking tonight....
 I'm sick of being hurt!!!!!
 

why dont I do well by myself?

Why am I so depressed?

Why did I let myself drink so much lastnight?

will anyone ever love me enough to stay with me?

Why am I so sick to my stomach that I cant eat?